Facing My Fears - Writing

UpdatedMay 24, 2021

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Tilda Udufo is a Software Engineer and open source community organizer with a passion for building inclusive, people-centered tech ecosystems.

Writing is something I’ve always struggled with. I know what I want to say but I don’t know how to say it, I don’t know what words would best describe what’s in my head. What would people think about the things I think about? What if my writing skills are terrible? (they are)

The fear of failure and rejection is something I don't know if I'll ever be able to conquer. The mere thought of people dismissing this post has made me delete this post several times and start again. I’ve never been able to display something of mine that is less than perfect and the words in my head are far from perfect. They are messy and disorganized but they are mine.

So, this post is me challenging myself to do something I'm scared of and not hide it like I hide every other less than perfect part of me. I’m writing this because I know I will not always have a song or a tweet to help me express myself so I need to learn how to speak for myself. It will be hard and terrifying and most days I will want to hide under a rock out of shame but that's okay. Stepping out of my comfort zone will be uncomfortable but it's the only way to see true growth.

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Potayto5y ago

Woohoo! Awesome job on getting started! :D

it's great to see that you're stepping out of your comfort zone. Stories like these can always be inspirational to others in similar positions, so it's always nice to see them! c:

I can totally relate with the fear of failure and rejection. I've struggled with that sentiment for a long time, but only recently have I started working on improving my mindset about it all, and trying to get out of my comfort zone more as well. And honestly, as we've all probably seen somewhere at least once before... the more you do it, the easier it becomes. Le gasp! Who would've thought, right? Haha :p

There's one particular video I watched on YouTube recently that kind of set me off a bit on embracing failure more and letting go of those fears. I mean, it's not like I'm an expert, or anything, heh. But we all have to start somewhere, right?

But yeah, it's great to come across someone else that is starting out as well. It's pretty motivating!

So I wish you the best of luck on your journey! Oh, and donut worry, your writing skills are really good! And they'll only continue to get better from here :)

Keep up the great work! n.n

Tilda Udufo5y ago

Thank you so much. This means a lot.

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Hi, I'm Tilda Udufo. I'm a web developer who is passionate about solving problems with code. I currently work with Javascript and Ruby on Rails.

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